goodbyes over hellos

It's strange but I do realize that the older I become, the harder I find it to let go of stuff and people. Saying goodbyes felt like a hundred times worst than before.
In short, my emotional level increases with the age.
As I let down my defenses, I'm learning that to release, is to also put my trust in God. Sometimes, it makes no sense at all..but it is at the altar where hope is being restored, longing filled, desires met, dreams awaken, love abound, saviour found.

'I have never walked on water.
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your word Lord i'll receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep.
And I remember how You found me.
In that very same place
All my failing surely would have drowned me.
But You made a way.'

-saviour king, hillsongs-

on silent mode

I give up!!
my poor mobile has to tolerate with the silent killer for the past couple of days.
insanity.
Just because........
insanity.

-miserable phone calls-

the outback

6 days of the outback experience, 4 long bus rides, 2 sleeping bags, my tent mate who wore a beanie, 2 socks, gloves and her cool teddy bear jacket while sleeping, the countless stars and the breath taking views at the rock climb...leaves me with this:
'you don't have to try hard to make things happen. Best moments come in the least amount of effort being done. You just to listen and walk alongside with it.'
There are times where I have to just leave my camera in my pocket and be in that moment to embrace it. It felt a lil like this while I stood at Kings Canyon:

Was it just another mere feeling or something echoed from the past? But that familiar sound, yes that connection. I felt it. I heard it. But still, I couldn't quite comprehend. It was far too good to be true. I tried to close my eye, my mind but it kept haunting me. The only way to know is to release all that you know, all that you are. Romance called forth the minute I opened my eyes. From the valleys to the mountains, from the rays of the sun to the strength of an eagle's wing. It felt as though that moment was made just for me. *pause* Wait, it was Our moment together.

So long as we imagine it is we who have to look for God, we must often lose heart. But it is the other way about - He is looking for us. - Simon Tugwell -